…and when the hemisphere in question is the left, the
right takes charge and invents a clever metaphor for total lack of common
sense—like, say, half of a brain on vacation.
So, my right brain has been a live wire of firing synapses while my left
has a solo cricket serenade on a loop. As
it turns out, brains function better when left intact.
For the past couple of weeks, my creativity has been
overwhelming, to the extent that I am actually irritated. Losing sleep because I still haven’t come to
terms with living in the Caribbean is one thing, but to lose sleep because I
want to paint an image that features an origami crane is senseless. In the last fifteen days, I have painted six original watercolors. My attempts to
wring out the creative spasms by flying through canvases have been entirely
ineffective. Even now I consider the
brilliant new wash of colors I’ll use on my next piece.
Most of my friends and family know that I paint; but
surely they know I don’t paint this
much. The urge to break out the brushes
happens about twice a year. I paint a
picture; usually I give it away; then I’m creatively exhausted for a span of
four to six months. But now I’m being
rocked by this insatiable need to create.
The need is not driving me to my usual photo recreation specialty,
either; instead, I am caught up in a surrealistic and abstract chaos.
In between mental designs of my next hallucinogenic
creation, my left brain stirs long enough to correct my increasing lapses in
common sense. Rather than cracking an
egg over a mixing bowl, I recently found myself emptying its contents into the
trash, then standing dumbfounded with the shell halves still in my hands. What had happened was reckless
overcompensation. Being too busy musing
over potential painting subjects to pay adequate attention to the task at hand,
I overcompensated by keeping a step ahead of myself. So when I should have been emptying an egg
into the batter, I was thinking about throwing out the shells. Hence the egg in the garbage. Left Brain was also kind enough to correct me
when I momentarily considered dumping a silica pack in our salt shaker because
Right Brain thought it would prove more effective than rice.
Before I go any further, I want to clarify that I do not
begrudge my flamboyant mind. Never have
I taken for granted this talent which leaves a trail of my very own artwork. And
certainly I won’t begrudge that trail a little detour if it’s for a good cause. While I am not yet sure of the cause, I do
know that some of my paintings (and hopefully some of my photos as well) will
be part of a silent auction for a fundraiser next month. Perhaps my creative craze will do some good
for a deserving organization.
If logic and analysis are left brain attributes and
imagination and rhythm are right brain attributes, then Ivan and I are two
halves of the same brain. Thanks to his
aptitude for technical analysis and political logic, he can correct me when I
question the role of my Medusa Oblongaza strip.
Meanwhile, I am his saving grace when his personal statement sounds like
it was composed by a passionless robot.
Speaking of logic and brains, Ivan completed his first
final on Monday. Bioethics is a
half-term course, so it finished two weeks before his other courses’ midterms
are scheduled to occur. The day before
his final, Ivan studied for hours before finally announcing, “This is
crap. Everything in this class is
subjective. There’s no way I’m going to
do well.”
Turns out he didn’t do well, he did exceptional. Now he can turn his focus to his remaining
courses, which will be holding midterms in one week. I know this is a stressful time for first
term students, so I’m trying to be supportive.
I tiptoe around Ivan when he’s hunched over his notecards with his head
clutched forlornly in his hands. I don’t
complain that we can’t afford the time or the money to go out. And when Ivan comes home from school
complaining that he “smells like formaldehyde,” I don’t add, “because you’ve
been wallowing in pickled corpses.”
Really, I am doing my best.
The weather is beautiful, as usual. The past couple of days have been cooler,
with fleeting showers that leave the air wet and fresh. I’ve realized that rain is falling somewhere
on the island always. Typically storm
clouds visibly ring the mountain peaks and with the rains come rainbows. Apparently, being in the dry season, this
amount of rain is unusual. Perhaps as
the dry season continues, the rain will fall less frequently.
Rain clouds over the mountain made pink by the setting sun. |
The sunset as seen from campus |
This island must be dotted with little pots of gold |
I love reading your blog, Allison. You are a true artist, my dear, in the way you see things, how you create things, and in how you are able to share this talent with others. Love ya!
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